self-inflicted pain

been checking my gmail account. its been a long time since i opened my mail and being the obsessive compulsive person that i am i begun clearing my inbox, and along with that i read my old mails again. i came across this message and i felt the same feeling i had when i wrote this. my friend is right when she told me that all pain are self-inflicted.

here's my message:
i wasnt able to text nung bumagyo
wla kc kmeng kuryente
d ako nakapagcharge for 3 days ata un
tapos aun nung mjo ok na bgla ka nlng nawala
been txtn u pero wla na akong nakuhang replies from u
sobrang sad ko nun
maloka loka ako nung hindi ka nagreply sa kin
unusual un for me kc i know lagi ka naman may load e
wierd lng tlga…
nagload pa naman ako for you
so aun i guess its all over na
sad lng kasi parang wla na lng akong magawa
sobrang gusto kitang iwasan kaso d naman pwd
tpos ngayon nalipat pa ko sa 15th
ano ba ito mas lalo atang humirap
mukhang cool lng naman sa yo e
i dont see na u have any problems sa nangyayari
well cguro i should start looking at things the way u look at it
parang ako lng kasi ung nasaktan at nawalan ang hirap
ganon pla tlga…dapat d na kc ako ngexpect from the start pa lang e
ang tanga ko tlga
shit! ngayon ko lng tlga nalaman na sobrang tanga ko
sinaktan ko na naman sarili ko ano
ba ito?! aun gaya ng gs2 mong mangyari ayaw mo ng makarinig ng kung ano sa akin
mukhang masusunod naman lahat ng mga hiningi mo
so balik na naman tyo sa strangers
salamat n lng sa lahat lahat
i dont regret the things that we did
its just sad to know that it all ended that quick
na parang wla lang.
guess it really wasnt a good idea at all
aun po. tca!

queueing

before we logged in we were told by the head of workforce that there are alot of calls waiting in queue…so goodluck guys, lalo na sa akin. wla kaya akong tulog ngayon..waaaahhhh!!! ubusin natin lahat ng calls na yan!

More Today Than Yesterday

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Every day's a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But, darling, not as much as tomorrow

Tomorrow's date means springtime's just a day away
Cupid, we don't need ya now, be on your way
I thank the lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger
And I always will be true
I know you feel the same way too

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But only half as much as tomorrow

i saw the sign

i went to edsa shrine yesterday to hear mass. when i got there, the priest was already giving the concluding rite. so i waited outside till the first mass ended. when i was finally inside, i started praying really hard. and just like old times, i again asked for a sign from Him. i never thought that I'd hear from Him that soon. after hearing mass we went around the mall and i saw the sign. its all around me. thank you!

How Could An Angel Break My Heart

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard here face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch may falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart