self-inflicted pain

been checking my gmail account. its been a long time since i opened my mail and being the obsessive compulsive person that i am i begun clearing my inbox, and along with that i read my old mails again. i came across this message and i felt the same feeling i had when i wrote this. my friend is right when she told me that all pain are self-inflicted.

here's my message:
i wasnt able to text nung bumagyo
wla kc kmeng kuryente
d ako nakapagcharge for 3 days ata un
tapos aun nung mjo ok na bgla ka nlng nawala
been txtn u pero wla na akong nakuhang replies from u
sobrang sad ko nun
maloka loka ako nung hindi ka nagreply sa kin
unusual un for me kc i know lagi ka naman may load e
wierd lng tlga…
nagload pa naman ako for you
so aun i guess its all over na
sad lng kasi parang wla na lng akong magawa
sobrang gusto kitang iwasan kaso d naman pwd
tpos ngayon nalipat pa ko sa 15th
ano ba ito mas lalo atang humirap
mukhang cool lng naman sa yo e
i dont see na u have any problems sa nangyayari
well cguro i should start looking at things the way u look at it
parang ako lng kasi ung nasaktan at nawalan ang hirap
ganon pla tlga…dapat d na kc ako ngexpect from the start pa lang e
ang tanga ko tlga
shit! ngayon ko lng tlga nalaman na sobrang tanga ko
sinaktan ko na naman sarili ko ano
ba ito?! aun gaya ng gs2 mong mangyari ayaw mo ng makarinig ng kung ano sa akin
mukhang masusunod naman lahat ng mga hiningi mo
so balik na naman tyo sa strangers
salamat n lng sa lahat lahat
i dont regret the things that we did
its just sad to know that it all ended that quick
na parang wla lang.
guess it really wasnt a good idea at all
aun po. tca!