one minute you’re bored and the next thing you know you’re raging mad

i woke up this morning and i felt so bored with my life. im with the person that i want to spend my life with but im still asking for more. all i know is that im so bored with life. i want to meet my friends but i damn well know that they cant make it today coz they have more important things to attend to. when i think about it i once again remember my boredom. i want to do the things that i used to do before. i want to spend some time with my family at the beach. its been three years already since i last spent my time with them. they told me that they are spending the day at the beach. what?! they are spending a day at the beach again?! and where am i right now? right here inside my room thinking of ways on how to keep away from this boredom. i started texting people just for the sake of letting them know that im bored. i even went online but then i can still feel my boredom. i called my bestfriend, had fun while i was talking to her but after we hang up i felt bored again. i remembered you and started bugging you. i was supposed to surprise you but i was the one who got surprised. the phone just keeps on ringing. where are you? where the hell are you?!?!? my heart started beating loud. i wanted to faint. i started calling your mobile. you're not picking up…why!? i really hate it when u do this to me. i forgot about my boredom and now theres alot of things going on in my mind. i dont want to feel this way ever again. im not sure where you are, who you're with, what the hell it is you're doing. i know i dont have the right to ask you about things and you dont have to explain your actions but i still would demand for it. im not sure why i would but i still would.