there’s no one here

its really nice to have a friend who will always be there for you when things go wrong. i have a couple of friends but only a few really understands and knows me well. ive been through a lot lately and it really helps knowing that i have someone who will be there to listen when i need to let out some bad vibes. i just had a very bad argument with my girl this morning and i really hate it when i leave problems just hanging around the corner but i cannot afford not to go to work as well so i really have no choice but to go and just let that problem stay there for a while…and i mean a looong while. i was on my way to work but it seems like i left my everything at home. ive been thinking alot about our argument that i almost got hit by a bike. when i got to work i really needed to tell someone about what happened but i dont have any close friend in class. i do have friends around but they are not the right people to tell my problem to. i was on the verge of breaking down. i know i just have to tell someone about this problem and i will be ok after that but you see the problem is THERE IS NO ONE that I can tell my problem to. i fucking hate it when i cant seem to get hold of someone when i really needed them.

buying stuff in greenhills

im scheduled to buy my dad a new cellphone today. this one's long overdue and i really need to get it now. my sister and housemate went with me. i already have a cellphone in mind, i just need to look for the cheapest. i was thinking that ill be done in less than an hour but when i got there, i got so confused with the wide assortment of phones that are in display. i even thought of getting a phone that is way out of my budget. good thing my sister is around to convince me to get just the basic one. after an hour of looking around, we finally decided to get a Nokia 1112. im not even sure if that is the correct model number. we got it for only 1,300 pesos. i think that was already a great deal.

now that we have the phone, we decided to look around and probably get some stuff for ouselves. i have a huge amount of cash with me coz im supposed to deposit it in my account and now my fear is that i might spend alot in just one day. in just less than 15 minutes of looking around ive already spent a thousand. that time i gave my money to my sister and told her to budget it for me. again its really nice to have your sister tag along during times like these. im still bothered by the amount of money that i spent. i just tell myself that i dont shop alot and i guess its not that bad at all. plus i enjoyed shopping with my sis.

…that kiss…

that was such a great kiss.
ive been looking at u the whole night.
i know ur upset with me at this point.
i just want u to know how shitty this is for me too.
its twice the disappointment that ur feeling right now.

looking at u, i can feel u want me too.
i can see the sadness in ur eyes.
and u should have seen how sad i am too.
i really wanna touch u right now.
but we both know we just cant do it right now.

i really need to touch and kiss you.
i dont know how much longer i can control myself.
we were left and now we have our chance.
u kissed me and i kissed back.
god ive been waiting for this.

that was just one hell of a great kiss.
i just cant help but ask for more.
will we ever get another chance?
yes, that chance came too quick…
…and this time its even better and longer.
 

menu bar

how would u react if ur having a fine time with ur ex and a friend and suddenly the one that ur flirting with appears right at ur side? what?!?!

this happened to me last friday. i was having some drinks with tata and cindy at menu bar, metrowalk and we were having a great time when out of nowhere yum appeared at my side. i knew she was coming but i was still shocked when i saw her standing at my side. i knew she was about to kiss me. good thing cindy was able to introduce her to tata before she can even bend and give me a kiss. earlier that day we already had plans of going out with the other guys from home depot. but just before class was finished i got a message from ta telling me to meet her so we can check one of the hotels in town. i agreed to go with her. i told the other guys that ill be back. but when i was already with tata i got a message from cindy that she doesnt want to go out with the other guys. she keeps on saying that she has a problem and that she wants to have a couple of drinks and talk about her situation. thinking that it was that bad i offered to go with her but since i was already with ta then she has to tag along. i was also aware that cindy informed some people, including yum that we were going out but i really didnt expect her to still ask her to follow us considering that this time tata is in the picture. i asked her why she did that and her reply was "im sorry anna, its just that i love tata so much". i didnt know how to react. it was really a very awkward situation for me and of course tata doesnt know all about this fling thing with yum. i didnt know if it was that obvious but tata commented that i seem to be flirting with the new girl. i had to excuse myself when i heard that. i made up a story that im having hard time breathing which is partly true. tata went with me and we walked around metrowalk. i wanted to stay away from them and just go home but that would be really obvious and tata might ask more questions so before she becomes aware of my nervousness we went back to our table. i pretended to act really cool inspite of how shitty i feel inside. i just cant wait for the night to finish.

one more week to go

im done with the first week of VA. so far im happy with all the scores that i got. we got news that we will have a new trainer next week. i hope she is as nice as clarence. i started the week on a bad note but now im just glad that this week is finally over. i will surely miss clarence and her stories.